My Current Skin Condition

11 March 2014

Hello everyone!

Alright, it's time to update about my current skin condition as requested. 

I received a lot of message asking me about my skin condition, some even comment in my Instagram asking me to blog about my skin condition. So yea... i assume a lot of people out there is quite curious about my skin progress more than my body progress. Therefore i'm here again to updates about my skin. 

You know what, i was trying to google about my name last few weeks. The moment when i type "Karen Kho" on the search column, it comes out "Karen Kho Blog", "Karen Kho Instagram" and "Karen Kho Acne" lol….As i know, everyone is well-known in something, i tried to search someone else in google it came out  XXX plastic surgery…so mine is "ACNE" huh… hahahahha! At least i'm 'famous' in something, my acne problem! Am i suppose to be happy or what? LOLLLL!

I'm writing this again because i know a lot of people out there facing the same problem with me. For all the people who are suffered badly. Lack of confident, stressed, depressed, feeling lost like what i've experienced before. But i'm so so so glad my skin is getting so much better now compare to last time! Here's a photo of my current condition. zero makeup, only sun block (That's why you can see my dark circle is pretty obvious, like a panda)

Thanks GOD i can finally go out without applying thick foundation on my face,like finally…
Only scars and some light redness left. I'm looking for solution to heal it too…

Btw, I've stopped visiting Dr.Ting & stopped taking Roaccutane for more than a month. So far, my skin never get worst or something, no more breakout at the moment..Phewwwww. I stopped because i've been really busy past few months, don't have time for visiting doctor. I will visit the doctor again when i free cause i need some advice from him too, regarding the scars treatment.

FYI, if you don't know how serious is my skin before this. Have a look with this photo. I'm really really sorry if i scare you off or makes you feel uncomfortable with my photo, but it's just something that i wanted to share with you guys. You should be thankful if you don't have problem like this, but if you are.. don't lose hope cause i didn't. It takes a lot of patient, so be patient & tough.

Took this photo last year during JAN/FEB, i don't really remember the exact time. It's quite serious, but not VERY...for me. Cause there's a time IT IS WORST than this X10000 times.. LOL (I still have all my skin progress photo if you guys are interested to see,LOL)

对不起如果把你吓坏了，它的确是这么恶心的。你们看到的只是照片，但是曾经我每天照镜子的时候看到的就是这张这么恶心的脸在我脸上。你知道那有多折磨吗？

As you see, there's still a lot of active acne and a lot of blackhead and whitehead. I had a lot of white head around my mouth area, i don't know why. It's super super hard to extract, no matter how hard i try….squeeze until the blood also come out, it's still there. LOL.

No matter how much foundation/concealer/powder i apply, nothing can be cover.

Here's a closeup photo of my skin after makeup during 2013

这是上了妆后的脸，还是很多凹凸不平的黑头白头和痘痘。这样脸维持了差不多2年，每天这能化妆出门…虽然应该不要化妆，但是那么严重怎样不化妆出门呢？痘痘也不是我想要的，可以发生在我身上我又能怎样呢…有谁不要美美的皮肤啊？

Another photo of my face after makeup. You can still see the pimples. 

That's the reason why..my whole personality changed. Trust me, it was a hard process and I still struggle with it from time to time. I feel like a freak, i hate it when people stare/look at my face, i'm afraid people might get disgusted with me... I cried, I feel very uncomfortable, pain...I became a very very anti-social, depressed, low-esteem, i don't talk much to people i'm not close with, i hide inside my home, i gave up a lot because of these. It is the most painful time of my life.

在这个什么都以貌取人的现实世界里...其实面对这样的问题是，真的什么自信心都没有了。如果你没有经历过，你是不会明白那种感觉的。每天不敢出门，不敢正视人家，不敢让人家仔细看清楚，很害怕别人嫌弃自己..因为自己看自己都那么讨厌了，还有谁会喜欢啊？曾经皮肤这样的时候真的什么都不想做，只是在那里急急急..不知道几时才变好。但是其实这样是错的，皮肤这样是要时间康复的，要有耐心，而且在等待皮肤好转的当儿可以去做别的有效率的东西比如健身之类的。因为我的mindset是，没有美美的样子也要练个好身材，哈哈哈。但是很庆幸经过了1－2年皮肤真的好转了，虽然还没完全康复但是还是也很庆幸自己想通了（这比一切都重要），熬过了那么多。当我低潮的时候常常会告诉自己，这只是一个考验，爱我的人自然会爱我..不要放弃自己，努力做好自然有人会看到的。如果你身边有一个面临皮肤问题的朋友记得要给他／她支持和鼓励，因为他们最需要的就是身边的人不离不弃。

But still, I have come to accept myself for who I am. I'm so thankful i manage to correct my mind from being negative. I know how acne KILLS your confidence and self esteem cause i've experienced it. Anyways, the point I wanted to make on here is we have to keep on living. It's just a obstacles to make us stronger. Yes, it is true that some people look at our face and get disgusted.. but it's ok.. People who love you will love you for who you are. 

Honestly, people with acne are some of the strongest people out there. We face the world when all we want to do is hide, we struggle EVERYDAY with a negative self image but we still manage to live. 

好了今天就分享到这里，迟点会再分享我护肤品跟治疗心德。哈哈，说到这个真的可以讲3天3夜都说不完的..所以还是到此为此好了。有什么问题可以comment留言问我，我会一一解答。

Alright, that's all for today. I will blog about the skin treatment i did and skin care i used now soon.

Do leave me a comment down below if there's any question or request, thanks! 

STAY TUNED for me next post :)

Thanks for reading this long long post * xoxo